The problem with me is I so easily develop irrational paranoia (or is that contradictory?, like, is any form of paranoia irrational, hence the term?).

Lemme check it out: Paranoia is an excessive anxiety or fear which is considered irrational and excessive, perhaps to the point of being a psychosis. Paranoia is distinct from phobias where there is an irrational and persistent fear (generally without blame) of certain situations, objects, animals, activities, or social settings.

So I'm irrational, and for me there's really no difference between what I'm constantly paranoid about or things (mostly big, sea animals) I'm afraid of. Some worthy cases in point:

1. I refuse to go into a body of water meters off the shoreline without some proof of certification that there are NO SHARKS in the water. Blame that on replays of Jaws on Channel 9.
2. I also refuse to associate myself with the worst kind of sharks - the ones living out of the water and pretending to be human. I still blame that on Jaws. I don't care if Discovery says they're grossly misunderstood creatures of the deep.
3. I hardly believe that GOOD THINGS CAN HAPPEN or as quoted from Hosseini's Kite Runner, "There is a way to be good again." But good things do happen to me all the time, I'm not necessarily Miss Lucky (I have yet to win the Lotto, but maybe that's because I never buy tickets), but I have to smack myself every now and then just to remind myself how good I have it.
4. I get swayed by statistics. For example, I'm not walking into any Australian waters any time soon. If Steve Erwin, Mister-I-Can-Handle-All-Forms-Of-Animals-With-My-Bare-Hands can die at the hands of a stingray, then I most certainly can.
5. My pets dying. I sometimes have weird dreams where they die, and I wake up the next morning determined to give them the best last meal.
6. Hobbies. Let's just say, no matter how interested I am. I have serious commitment issues.

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Went to Divisoria yesterday with Mom and got the yellow version of my Shox at Tutuban at 40% off. What a steal!

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